I temporarily forgot my username and password for this, don't ask me how, but i had a revelation this morning and finally remembered it! So, I am back! I have lots to write about since I have not written in so long.

First, I got to see Nathan for a couple days of his spring break. He came to Tucson and spent 4 days with me, it didn't quite seem like enough and it went so fast, but it was so much fun and I had an amazing couple days with him. It was really sad to say good-bye to him again. I feel like I am constantly saying bye bye bye bye! It really sucks, but for now that is what I have to live with.

Once Nathan flew back east I headed to San Diego to spend my spring break with my family. It was nice to see them, and I absolutely love Taylor's new apartment. I am so jealous. I just hung out while I was home, went to Bentley's lacrosse games, and did some shopping with my Mama :) Usually I am ready to go back to Tucson and be on my own again, but this time is was really hard for me to leave. I wanted to just stay and be with my family. I feel like I am always missing everyone. Whether it is Nathan or my family, I am always wishing I was with them.

Well, now I am back in Tucson. I am just cleaning up and running errands and stuff like that cause there is nothing else to do. Everyone is still home with their families until Sunday, but I had to come home to work. Boo. So basically I am bored and lonely. Awesome. Just what I need.

Boys: selfish, immature, rude, mean, selfish, selfish, selfish.

I think I expect too much of people. And that is going to be my downfall.

I officially HATE my living situation. It is uncomfortable, stressful, and annoying. I have one roommate who hands down wins worst roommate of the century award. She is rude, selfish, and a bitch. Honestly. I am so glad that she will be out of my life for good in a couple of months.

You all know how I like to vent, so I just had to get that out, but now I can get on to happier things! Well, my lacrosse team just went to SB for a tournament, we are now 3 and 0 in league. WOWWW!! So exciting. School is good, but stressful. Nathan is good, I should hopefully be seeing him in about 3 weeks. Everything else is pretty good. I started a diet and that is going ok. It is warming up here so I figure I will get a head start on looking good for summer! Haha. Other than that I don't have much to tell you. XOXO.

I am sitting in the student union eating lunch by myself right now, but things are good. It has been decided that me and my current roommates will all be going our separate ways next year, but I think it is for the best although I will miss living with Kristin because I have lived with her my whole college life up to this point. Things are still uncomfortable and tense around my house but at least we all know that it is only for a couple more months then we will no longer be getting on each others nerves on a daily basis.

Everything ha been going pretty good. Nathan is doing good, he is super busy as always, but he found a work study job so he is very excited about that! Although we are 3,000 miles apart we have never been better and I am so so happy. Assuming he makes it out for spring break I will be seeing him in 4 weeks!!

I dropped my 4 credit spanish class so I am down to 15 credits which is much easier to deal with! But my work load is still pretty big. I am constantly reading for my children's literature class and it gets a little stressful.

Lacrosse is going well. We have our first home games this weekend against Pepperdine and USC. I am really excited!! And I think my Mom and Dad are going to come out to watch so it will be nice to see them!!! I have never loved a team as much as I love my current team, They are all such awesome, fun, sweet girls and they make everything better :))))

I think that is all I have to update you about for now. Dear John comes out tomorrow and I really want to see it!!! It looks so cute and it is about a long distance relationship so I can definitely relate. Haha, okay that's all I got. LOVE LOVE LOVE. XOXO.

Things are very stressful at my house right now. I think I am ready to move on and move past the stupid issues that continue to resurface in my life. My good friend Amanda will be moving in with me next year and I am very excited about that. It is something new, and she is pretty much my clone, so needless to say we get along really well. My living situation as of lately has become almost unbearable and has me frustrated and upset on a daily basis. If you are one of the people that talks to me often, Mom and Ashley, then you are probably well aware of the tension present in this house. Anyways, things have been as busy as ever! School, school, school, lacrosse, lacrosse, lacrosse, work, work, work, read, read, read!!! It is not too bad right now, but there is no doubt that I am busy, busy, busy! I have been feeling pretty good this past week, besides the whole house thing, and been able to video chat with Nathan almost everyday which always makes things better. Nathan thinks he is a photographer now ( ;) ) and although I joke about him thinking he is a pro now that he has his cool camera, he actually is quite good. There is no doubt that he takes really beautiful pics... but anyways, what I was meaning to tell you guys is that he had one of his pictures enlarged and he sent it to me as a present and I framed it and hung it on my wall and it is just SO CUTE! :) Hmm, what else? Jack is doing good. He is probably my favorite thing in he world and I just love him so much and want to give him kisses all the time!!! Haha. He is my snuggle buddy. Well, I don't think I have much else to say, if I think of something I will post it later! Love. XOXO

I do NOT want to go to work. Ugh. I am so tired and I just want to go to bed because I have to get up early for class, but NOPE... I have to go to work and close tonight, so if it is a quick close then I might be home by midnight. Sometimes I wish I didn't get a job. I just don't have time. I have so much more work for my classes than I expected, plus lacrosse and what not and it is just becoming too much. I like making my own money... but I don't know if it is worth being miserable all the time cause I HAVE no TIME. I can't quit cause I have not been working that long and that is just dumb, but I just like I don't know. I don't know. I want more down time to just sit in my bed and watch t.v. BLAH. I am just so tired right now! SO TIRED. And I still have so much reading to do. Poop.

Other than that, I have been happy. Me and Nathan, despite the 3000 mile separation, are doing quite well. I miss him more than anything, but we are dealing. Just looking forward to summer, of course.

So, when Nathan was in England I sent him a big box of stuff... One of the things in it was a series of letter, some with quotes, some with letters, some with silly things for him to do, etc. Well, one of the letters told him to write a poem about The Sad Little Running Shoe. Of course, he did it, and I just thought I would share it with you, even though it was done months ago, because it is just so cute. The first part is what Nathan wrote, the second short part is what I added to it. Enjoy!! XOXO

I am unhappy,
In fact, I feel down right crappy.
I used to be able to just hit the street,
Tied up tight on someones feet.
Slap, Slap, hard against the pavement,
But now I have seen my new replacement.
I used to be white,
I used to be clean and tight.
I used to have a sole and solid heel,
I used to have that new feel.
But not anymore, I've seen my day,
I am now doomed to sit in the back of the closet, out of the way.
I am the sad little running shoe, Does anyone care?
And I am just nothing like the new Nike Air.
I dont have any shiny plastic parts,
I just smell of feet and farts.
I dont have any heel springs,
I just have gross sweat rings.
I dont have a light weight frame,
I am just downright lame.
I dont have a fancy microchip,
Im just a piece of shit.
Ripping at the seams and beat to hell,
Why didnt I get an extra flexible waterproof shell?
I am just the sad little running shoe, Does anyone care?
I am just nothing like the new Nike Air.
I used to win all the races,
I saw all the hippest running places.
I was the talk of the town,
People who had me just couldn't frown.
I made running fun,
People would run just to run.
But now, ever since this Nike fella came around,
I can't help but feel a little down.
I think if you just cleaned me up a bit,
Get some new laces I bet I can still fit!
I might be running a little thin,
But let me race and I will win!
Please go return those new shiny shoes,
Because everyday they leave and I stay, I just feel blue.
I promise I dont have to be the sad little running shoe,
If you just say I am still the shoe for you!

Dear sad little running shoe
I'll let you race
Just come with me
We'll keep a good pace
We'll go down streets
And trudge through sand
Together we'll show that Nike brand
That running shoes don't need plastic parts
And you know they're loved when they smell like farts
I'll show everyone and they'll see
That, sad little running shoe, you're the shoe for ME!!

My heart goes out to all the Lurcook family.

R.I.P Uncle Burnell.

XOXO

I am feeling so much better. Still a little overwhelmed with class as I am taking 19 credits this semester, but I am getting settled back in Tucson and I am feeling happy, so YAY! I realized some stuff about myself and realized that sometimes you just have to make some changes to be happy. That's all for now, I will have time later to update a little more. XOXO.