Today is THE DAY!

I am about to go pick up Nathan from the airport and see him for the first time in OVER THREE MONTHS! OMG!!! I could not be happier right now:) XOXO

Long time no write?

Hello Friends and Family,

I realize I have not updated my blog for ages. And since I am in a good mood this morning I thought, hey why not! So I guess I have a lot to fill you in on. Most of you know I got a job at Starbucks, and I absolutely love it. I fit in really well at the store I am at and I love everyone I work with. Classes are officially over, but I still have 3 more finals next week, and I had 2 this past week. I am not so sure how great my grades are going to be this semester, my classes were on the edge of absolutely ridiculous. But I think I will at least pass them all! I think... I put some pics up from the last couple months, some are from Thanksgiving... It was SO SO SO nice to be home for a weekend, I really needed it. I got to see Gramma and Poppy which was so nice, and I even got a silly picture with Gramma haha ;) The other pictures are from stuff with my lacrosse team. We had a scrimmage up in Phoenix, then the next morning we had Has, which is this running game. It was super fun, we always have a blast when we're together. My team, that is. So besides school, work, and lacrosse I have not been doing much. Being as busy as I am I am just so tired all the time, especially when I have to get up at 3 in the morning for work. Ugh. Last night I fell asleep at 8 and missed my friends birthday party! We decorated our house for Christmas and it looks pretty cute. The kitties have their own stockings that Gramma Barb got them ;) Well, right now I am just listening to Christmas music while I run around and do errands. Laundry, cleaning, etc. I have to get ready for Nathan to come! OMG HE IS HOME TONIGHT! You guys have no idea how happy I am. The most miserable 3 months of my life is finally over. It felt like it took forever. But YAY he is finally coming home! He will be coming out to Tucson Tuesday probably to stay with me then drive back home with me. We are going to exchange gifts early and I am so excited. Since he doesn't read this I can tell you guys what I got him. First, I got him 2 pairs of jeans that he wanted... But that is not the big present... The big present is... I wrote him a book and had it published. For my last birthday he wrote me a book and had it printed and bound and everything and it was the best present I ever recieved from anyone, so I did kind of the same thing. I put all my poems together, and wrote probably about 35 more, and found a website that lets you self publish, and WALAAA! A book! So I am very very excited, it turned out really good. Anyways, I better get back to my chores. I have to finish up here at the house, then go shopping for a few Christmas presents before work tonight. Peace & Love. XOXO

Hello All!!! I am way over-do for a blog update! Sorry I have been slacking, but I will fill you guys in. Well, basically I have just been going to school. I have had a pretty heavy work/study load lately and it is stressing me out, but I just keep thinking just 4 more weeks, just 4 more weeks, and I get to be done, see Nathan, and GO HOME! I started work a couple weeks ago, I am still training, but this Sunday I have my first official barista shift! I am really nervous cause there is so much I have to remember, but I think I will okay once I get into it and get the hang of it. Hmm what else?? Lacrosse is going well. I like all our little rookies:) That is pretty much all I have been doing though. School, lacrosse, and work. But it is keeping me super busy! It has finally cooled off here, and I am loving it! I just can't wait for winter. It is getting so close. In 26 days Nathan is home and then he is gonna come see me and we will drive back to San Diego together, then spend all of winter break together and it is going to be amazing! I am so so so so unbelievably excited! Alright, well I don't think I have much else to say. Love you all! XOXO

What do I want?

-I want my best friend to be alive.

-I want my boyfriend to live in the same country as me.

-I want school to be easier.

-I want my family to be healthy.

-I want to be able to be happy without trying so hard to be.

-I want it to be December.

-I want to be done with college.

-I want to see my family.

-I want to be able to see Nathan more than twice a year.

-I want...

A little birdy told me that Riki wants to hear some more of my complaining!! So I guess I will fill you all in on the last couple weeks, or is it days? When's the last time I wrote? Anyways, not too much has happened. Lacrosse started, and I am so glad!!! We are doing runs and throws, but nothing too serious until the 22nd when official practices start. I should be finding out this week if I got into the college of education. And I also should be finding out if I got a job or not. So I am keeping my fingers crossed for both of those! Me and my roommates had a party on Friday and the theme was white trash :) It was super fun, but someone stole my ipod :( And now whoever stole my ipod has seemed to hack into my facebook and email. My fb and email automatically connect on my ipod (itouch) so when they turned it on they had access to all my stuff. It is really creepy and I am super bummed. My camera also broke that night, lame, but that is fixable and I am going to send it in to Nikon so they can figure out what's up with it. The weather has been nicer this past week, but it is starting to go up again. There were a couple days where I could wear jeans and a sweater, but now I am back to jeans and a t, and later this week it's gonna be back to SHORTS! Icky. October seems to be going by pretty fast I think, we are like halfway through! I can't wait for this semester to be over! As you all already know haha. But I just can't say it enough. This has been the semester from HELL! GAHhhhHHhha. SO so so so so ready for it to be break so I can see my family, see Nathan, have a break, be in the cold, go to the beach, and the list goes on and on! Jack is snuggling with me right now :) He is such a good boy! He is always sleeping on my bed when I get home from class, and he is just so so cute! I just LOVE him! Well, I don't have much else to say. XOXO

Lovely Day

It is beautiful in Tucson today. It probabl wont last long, but I am enjoying it while I can. I am sitting in the grass under a tree :) I love it. I am meeting a couple of my teammates for lunch in a but, and I don't really have much to do right now cause my class got out super early.I leave tomorrow morning for Santa Barbara, and I will be staying with Danika so I am so excited! I miss her! Then I come back Sunday and we have Jessica's 21st Birthday Dinner. THEN study study study. I have 2 more tests next week, then one the next week, then I finally have a little break. That will be 5 straight weeks of test. That's ridiculous. Anyways, I don't have much to say, I am just bored. XOXO.

It's Wednesday!

Hello, so halfway through the week! I have lots to fill you in on, I think? Um, first of all, on Monday I had my College of Education interview! It consisted of a group interview and an individual interview. They both went amazingly well! The woman who did the group interview said we were her best group, and I had 2 principals interview me in my individual and I think that went super well too. And I find out in about 2 weeks whether I got in or not, I am soo excited!! And more good news, I finally got a job interview at Starbucks, so that is in Monday and I am super stoked. Me and Casey leave for Santa Barbara Saturday morning to make our game schedule for lacrosse, and we will be getting back Sunday afternoon. Um what else? I had a paper due today, so I was up late last night finishing that, and I have a religion test tomorrow so I will be up late again studying for that. Then I have another government test on Monday, and an art test later in the week. So, for the past 3 weeks, and the next 2 I will have had or will have at least one test each week. WOW too much! We had our lacrosse info meeting last night and that went well, a lot of girls showed up. We will start unofficial practices next week on the mall. I went to yoga last night and that was good, we did a lot of meditating and it was really relaxing :) I am super tired today cause I was up late and I still have until 4 when I am done with classes. THEN I get to study! Yay! Um what else can I tell you?? Um, it has been 6 days since I have talked to Nathan. Very weird and lame. But he got to travel around England this weekend so I am sure he had lots of fun. I don't think I have much more to tell. Things haven't been too exciting here in Tucson. Alright well, bye. XOXO.

Friday, Friday

So, it's Friday. This has been a moderately good week, much better than the last one at least. Right now I am sitting in a big comfy chair in the bookstore, enjoying a venti iced non-fat peppermint white mocha. WOW, that's a mouthful. And I am about to meet my friend Erica for lunch! I have my COE interview coming up on Monday, and I am so nervous. So keep your fingers crossed for me! Last night I went to yoga and it was amazing. Like, I felt so good afterwards, and it just put me in such a great state of mind. From now on it is every Tuesday and Thursday so I am so happy about that!! Next week is also our first lacrosse meeting, so we will have a room in the rec center and all the players and new freshman will come and me and the other president, Casey, will tell them all about how awesome lacrosse is and how much our team rocks!!! And then next weekend me and Casey will be going to Santa Barbara for the WWLL meeting to make our schedule for the spring. We are hoping to be able to fly there instead of drive. If we can stay at my best friend Danika's house then we can fly, but we won't know if we can stay there till after this weekend because Danika plays soccer at UCSB and she is not sure if they will be traveling that weekend or not. I am hoping NOT, cause I really don't want to drive. Good news, I am a quarter of the way through this semester! I have had 3 tests, I have 2 more next week, and a paper due today and next week. WOW. I am gonna be busy busy with stuff this weekend! I will probably be spending the majority of my time in Starbucks haha. But that's nothing out of the ordinary. As you all know I am trying to get a job. I applied to 9 places, but haven't heard back yet. I am gonna check up on my apps this weekend I think. Um, what else is new? I guess not much. I am absolutely in love with my kitty, Jack. He is my best little friend, except in the morning when I am laying in bed talking to Nathan on the computer and he feels the need to sit with his butt in my face so I can't see the screen AND attack my fingers while I type. But other than that I just adore him, and I am so so glad that I have him. I sent Nathan a big box of goodies and what not yesterday, no knowing that it was going to cost me an arm and a leg to send. First I went to UPS and they told me it would be 160 dollars to send, and I was like HELLLLLLL NO, yeah right cause I have that kind of money! So then I took it to the post office and ended up sending it for 42 dollars there. Which is a big difference! But the thing with the post office is... there is no guarantee when and if it will actually get there. They told me that they usually don't have problems with packages getting lost when sent to England, but that you never know... and when the package leaves the US and enters the UK they no longer have any control or anything so it is in the hands of the UK post office or whatever. So I am a little nervous that it is gonna get lost, but I will just think happy positive thoughts and hope for the best. AND hope that it doesn't take too long cause I put homemade cookies in there... and if they get there in a month... ewwwww hahaha. Um what else can I tell you??? How about why doesn't anyone else update their blog anymore!! Come on people! Anyways, tonight we are having girls night. Me, Jessica, Kristin, and maybe Yael are going to go to dinner, and then we are going to watch Now and Then. We always joke that we are the Now and Then girls when we ride out bikes to school, cause we ride in a straight line side by side haha. We are just too cute;) I am not sure if I have much else to tell you. I think I have pretty much covered it all. I started reading P.S. I Love You again cause I just love that book so much, but I would like to find another really good book to read, so if anyone has any suggestions let me know. There are a lot of tours on campus right now. It is funny to think that like 3 years ago I was on one of those tours. And now I am a junior!! So weird! But I am glad, I think I am ready to be done with college. It is nice and all, but I can't wait to actually be teaching a class of my own and be back home and be able to see Nathan everyday. Hmmm. Alright, well gotta go. XOXO.

Sunday

Today I applied to 3 more Starbucks, that makes it 5 total, so cross your fingers for me. Gramma and Poppy stopped by on their way home from Sedona and took me to lunch. It was really nice to see them. After that I went to Cutters and met up with Kristin and Jessica. I was doing pretty good all day until I got home and was alone again. Of course I fell apart, big surprise.  I am praying this gets easier. If anyone has any advice for me on how to get through this, please please help me out...XOXO

Saturday

I am at Cutters Point Coffee right now, I just had to get out of my house. I have been filling out job apps for a while and I just finished. I can't decide whether I am gonna go home or stay here and study for math. I don't really want to be at home, especially since I would be alone... but I don't really want to be alone here either. Nathan said he would be able to talk later tonight... meaning this afternoon for me, so hopefully that actually happens, but I just hate the feeling I have while I am waiting to talk to him. The people behind me are having a bible study and I have been listening to them. Sometimes I wish I was a religious person... I think it would be nice to have something to look up to that could help me make sense of my life right now. I believe in God and all, and sometimes I pray for help or relief... but I don't have a deep understanding of God and the Bible and all that. And I wonder if I did, if right now I would have some kind of outlet, if I would be more positive ya know. I need some help finding some inner peace so that I can be happy. I think I already told you this, but I am going to start going to yoga with one of my roommates. It is 2 days a week, and they do meditation as well as yoga. I think that it will be really good for my body, mind, and spirit. Someone told me that when I feel sad, that I need to do something for either my body, my mind, or my spirit... and this will do it all I think. My mind is always racing, and my heart is always beating so fast so I am hoping this will calm to down. I am like a hummingbird... my heart beats so fast all the time.... I am afraid it is going to shorten my life span. We will see. I have decided that I really need to take some action on getting myself better, and in a more positive state of mind. I am going to put all of my angry and sad energy into school. And I think that if I think positive and work hard and imagine myself being successful this semester then I may be able to get through it. And I am praying that I get a job. Feeling productive, and important can really change me. If I feel unimportant, or like I am not doing anything, then I feel really bad myself, which in turn makes me feel bad about my life. But if I feel like I am doing something, I am productive, important, needed, then I feel better about myself. I have a very complex mind. It never stops. I guess I get that from my Dad. His wheels are always turning.... and so are mine. That's why I never sleep. There is too much going on inside my head. Anyways, I guess that is enough for now. XOXO.

 Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It is for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It is for those who know a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough. ♥

I don't want to feel like this...

3 months, 13 weeks, 87 days, 125,280 minutes... they better go by fast!

So, I guess I am feeling somewhat better. I am still having a really hard time with this, but I got to talk to Nathan this morning, which made me happy. But I just really miss him a lot. Like I feel anxious all day, and when I finally get to talk to him my heart races so fast. I feel like a little girl when her crush talks to her haha. Everyday I wish there was something I could do to bring him back, to be able to see him everyday, but obviously that's just crazy cause there is nothing I can do.  I have a biology test tomorrow that is gonna kick my butt so that is also causing me a lot of stress too. Ugh, I want it to be winter break already. I am already over this whole semester. I think it will probably be the hardest one for me, so once it is over... I think I will be okay. I hope it will be okay. And I think that if I can get through this semester, being so far away from Nathan, and putting up with everything that comes along with your boyfriend being in a different country... then I will be able to get through the year and a half after that that I have to be away from him. Because this is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. And it may seem silly to some of you, but think about this... if you had to be away from the one person you love most whether its a husband, boyfriend, daughter, son, friend... would it be easy for you? What about if you couldn't talk to them? I 've realized this: I was fine last semester when we were away from eachother, then we came home for summer and did everything together, literally, and now he is in a different country... I got so used to living my life with him in it, with him as a really big part, that now that I have to live my life without him... I don't know how... And I don't know what to do...

goodmorning

I got a whopping total of 5 hours of sleep last night! I stayed till about midnight talking to Nathan, because he woke up and had time to talk before he went to class. Then I woke up at 5 to talk to Nathan again. I didn't actually wake up on purpose at 5, but my body just woke up because I think I knew I was going to get to talk to him. But of course we didn't actually talk until about 6, so I just laid in my bed, with this growing anxious feeling in my chest. When I talk to him lately I feel sick to my stomach/really sad. I think that will go away once I actually accept the fact that he is in stupid England. But for now, it's just gonna be hard for me to talk to him:( I am gonna try to have a more positive attitude about this because I know I can't change it, but I am gonna have t work at it. This is very hard for me. I feel really sad all day, until a couple hours before I go to bed when I start to feel better. But then I go to sleep, and when I wake up I feel sad again. The morning is the worst for some reason. Every morning when I wake up I get like butterflies in my stomach and that anxious feeling in my chest, then I get really depressed and cry. But as the day goes on, I feel a little better. I don't know. 

Finally

So I finally talked to Nathan today. It wasn't the happiest of talks, but it was nice to hear from him. He starts 2 classes tomorrow and the rest next week. And he is already running out of money (MAYBE HE WILL HAVE TO COME HOME;)!!!!!!!!!!!) We are not going to be able to talk on the phone, or text. So it's the internet only, oh joy. And this sucks. This sucks. This sucks. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I wish that SOMEONE could even understand a little how I feel right now. There needs to be some kind of support group for people in long (and when I say long I mean LONG) distance relationships. This is so stupid. I could not be more unhappy. And I know that is a horrible attitude, but whatever, I could care less at this point. And I just want to give props to my cousin Carissa... I don't know how you did it with a baby and not seeing Brandon for 7 months, you're my hero girl! Anyways, life is boring in Tucson as usual. AAAAAANNNNDDD I wish I could find a way to make these 3 months go faster because at this rate, I might be dead or have gone insane by the time December comes around. Ugh. And MOM I know I know "distance makes the heart grow fonder"... but right now distance is making me want to rip out my heart and throw it right in Nathan's face. Can you guys tell I am angry right now?? I am filled to the brim with rage. And at the same time I want to fall into a puddle on the ground and cry until I throw up. There are a lot of worse things that could be happening, I know. But this IS what is happening. THIS is what I am living through right now. And I think that if you have ever loved someone as much as I love Nathan, you would realize that having that person you love in a different country, on a different time, and unable to speak with them is pretty rough. It's hard to think of them going on and living there life without you in it. It's hard to think that there are other people that get to see him everyday when you have to wait months just to see him for a couple weeks. It's hard to think that you're not a part of their daily life. That you are just something on the side. Anyways, I have to go study for a POL test I have tomorrow. I tell ya, I have such a fun life. LATER! Be ready for my next long rant! XOXO

HURRAY HURRAYY!!!

Nathan texted me!!! He is there and will have internet tomorrow, so that is good news. But we won't be able to text cause its too expensive, and I am not sure about calling yet either.

Still no word...

So this is going on day 3 of Nathan being in England and I still haven't heard a word from him. I thought maybe I would wake up to an email or something, but nothing. I was really upset yesterday, but I made myself feel better by thinking this is silly I shouldn't be so upset about not hearing from him, I am sure he is fine. But this morning I woke up with that sick feeling in my stomach. I am sure he is okay, I just don't understand why we have had no form of contact the last couple days. It's 2:30 pm there right now, so he has been there for a couple days. I feel like he would have a phone by now, or at least access to internet. I just want to talk to him. 

I hate stupid England. 

Pictures from the last couple weeks!

Me and Nathan :)

Jack Jack on the Kitty Castle Nathan made for him!

More of me and my favorite boy!

The flowers and coffee Nathan surprised me with!!!! So sweet!!

Lots to tell!!

Hey guys, sorry I don't keep up with this! I figured it was time for an update since I haven't had a new post since I got my tonsils out. SO, what has happened lately?? Well I am back at school. I have been in Tucson for about 4 weeks now. Bentley drove out with me to help me move the rest of my stuff in and then she had to leave the next day because she had cross country practice, but it was nice to have her with me on the long boring car ride. We rocked out to Taylor Swift for a nice portion of the 6 hours:) Classes started about 3 weeks ago and so far things are going okay. I already have 2 exams this week!!! Scary! I am taking my first teaching course called teaching elementary math, and so far I really like it. I applied to the college of education for the teacher preparation program this last friday, so keep your fingers crossed for me!!! If I get in, next semester I will be taking teaching/method courses so I am very excited! Whats next?? Nathan made a surprise visit to me here in Tucson. He made up this whole story about how he was flying out and then his plane got delayed and blah blah and I totally fell for it. He called me and asked me if I had checked the mail that day cause he sent a package and he got a notice that it had arrived and I hadn't so I went outside to check and there were flowers and a mcdonalds caramel iced coffee (my favorite!) on the porch. THEN I was very confused and just kept saying what the heck, nathan, what the heck whats going on. And he walked around the corner and there he was! SURPRISE!!! It was the best surprise ever... he had driven all day to surprise me:) He is so sweet. He stayed for 4 days and it was so much fun! We adopted a kitty and Nathan named him Jack. He is all black and has pretty blue eyes. Nathan built him a really cool kitty castle thing. It took him a while, but it turned out really good. Nathan also did yard work and fixed the light that was falling of my ceiling. I tell ya... he's gonna make a great husband one day;))) When Nathan left I went back to my normal routine of school and what not. THEN the next weekend I flew home so I could see him one more time before he left for England. I spent pretty much every second with him when I was in San Diego, I won't lie, but he is the reason that I went home so what do you expect!! We did our normal movie watching and dinner going, and then on Sunday we went golfing with Bentley and his little brother Evan. It was so much fun, but it was so so hot!! And me and Bentley are awful at gulf haha. When we got home from golfing I realized I had a fever but that wasn't gonna stop me! ( I ended up having the flu and I am still fighting a bad cough). Monday me and Nathan went to the beach with my family and had a bbq. That was our last day together, so it was sad, but fun. Tuesday morning Nathan took me to the airport and we said our good-byes. It was really hard:( I am really really gonna miss him. I already do. He gave me his favorite pair of old grey sweatpants with a cute little note so I have been wearing those a lot. He left for England yesterday morning and he is going to be there for 3 months. I am so so happy for him because he wanted to do this so bad and he is so excited, but its gonna be hard. He is going to be 9 hours ahead of me for the next 3 months... I don't know how much I like that. That means when I am sleeping, he is awake. And when I am awake, he is sleeping. Like right now... its midnight there. It is going to take some getting used to. I haven't actually talked to him since he left from the New York airport, and I'm not gonna lie, it is driving me crazy. Not knowing what is going on is NOT something that I like. He has to get a different phone so so far he has no way to call me, and I am not sure about the internet situation... but I really hope I hear from him soon. Or... I might just lose my mind. Anyways... other news. We now have 3 animals in the house. Kristin has her kitty Sam, I have Jack, and Yael is currently dog sitting a little pup named Trae. What a big family we have!!! :) I am currently looking for a job. My Dad helped me type up a resume today and I am gonna do a lot of job searching this week. I need to keep busy or I am gonna miss Nathan too much , so it will be really good if I get a job. Wish me luck cause no ones hiring haha!!!! Well I guess that about does it for now. I will try to keep up with this more!!! XOXO.

Misery

This is so awful. I am in so so so much pain and I am choking on my own spit. My tongue is still swollen and I have the worst taste in my mouth. Pain meds help, but they make me nauseous since I can't eat anything. I thought it was a funny idea that I would lose weight from not being able to eat for a little while, but nooo. I really have lost weight. A noticeable amount. And if I keep feeling like this for another week or two then I am going to be legitimately skinny. Crazy. I have watched every movie in my house, I swear, and I am just so tired of laying in bed and doing nothing. My Mom is great though, she is always checking in on me and seeing if I need something, but I am being very bratty and I should be nicer to her, I'm just frustrated. I am literally starving and it is making me a grumpy person. I can barely talk still, Bentley says I sound like a deaf person hahaha. Yesterday I went to BJ's for a birthday celebration for my friend Niamh who passed away and I couldn't even have a real conversation with her parents cause my words don't make any sense! It is frustrating. But hopefully this next week I will get better. I take that back... it is gonna get worse cause my throat with start to scab, but then after that it should get better:) Alrighty, that's my update for you guys. I'm miserable and grumpy. Cross your fingers that I will start to improve! XOXO.

Sunsets and Surgeries

Hello! So many of you know that I had surgery yesterday, tonsillectomy and adenoidectomy, so I will be lying in bed bored for quite some time...... so I thought what better to do than update my blog since I normally am so bad with keeping up with it. 

Me and my big strong man:)

These are my lacrosse girls at our last game! I am so so proud of them. It was so exciting to watch these girls improve in their lacrosse skills during the few months I was able to coach them. There was such a difference from their first game to their last. They played fantastically at the Starz Cup and they almost won! I am going to miss them a bunch, but hopefully I will be back to coach over winter:)

This is my handsome man dressed up as an explorer:) Every Thursday at the day camp he works at the leaders have to dress up for that weeks theme and this week it was Journey to the Center of the Earth so he dressed up like an explorer. He always has the best outfits, isnt' he the cutest! Haha. The kids at his camp think that he is just the coolest thing on this earth! 

Nathan and I went down to Marine Street beach a couple weeks ago and ate some of my homemade fried rice and just sat there and watched the sunset. It was really fun and there was hardly anyone there which made it even better. I got a  lot of really good pictures, but this one is my favorite...

Summer, oh summer...

Just to fill you guys in on what's been going on with me... I have been coaching lacrosse and volunteering at a day care called The Little School. I really enjoy doing both of these, but it's hard because I am not getting paid for either of them and really have no source of income right now. I have been doing yard work for money, but that's not getting me too far. Other than that I have been hanging out with Nathan when he is not working and visiting my best friend Danika a couple times a week since she is stuck on the couch because she got ACL surgery. Ummm, I got my wisdom teeth out and that was hell and in a few weeks I will be getting my tonsils removed. Ultimately, this has been the lamest summer in the history of summers. No job, no money, and two surgeries. Gah! But it was good to see my Idaho family:) I just wish we could see them more than once every couple years. Hopefully we can come up for Christmas this year, keep your fingers crossed Idahoans!!!! Well, I guess that's all for now. XOXO.

Quick Update

Sorry I have been super busy since I got back to San Diego so I haven't had time to write, but basically what I have been doing is working in a 5th grade classroom everyday and coaching lacrosse on Mondays and Wednesdays. I am working hard to get all my hours with kids filled so thats pretty much all I have been doing. Other than that I hang out at home or with Nathan and do nothing. But it's kind of nice to do nothing. Ugh, it just doesn't feel like summer at all. I guess now that I'm not a kid anymore I kind of never will have a real summer again. Oh well. XOXO

Weekend and Packing

My weekend was very boring, as usual. I just sat around, and laid out a little bit. And today I started to pack some stuff up so I am ready to leave ASAP on Friday. I packed up all my wall decorations so my walls are all blank and I also packed up some desk stuff and any other stuff I won't be needing when I go back to San Diego. Other than that I have been doing nothing. I went to the gym and almost died because it is so dry today and I hadn't drank any water before I worked out. Not a smart choice. Anyways, I can't wait to be home!!! I am so ready to be done with this lonely desert thing. XOXO.

Happy Birthday Mama

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

7 days to go...

... and I am finally out of here. I can't be here anymore. It's horrible.

Bad Day:(

A Side Note

I realize that I am doing a lot of whining and complaining about my lonely life in Tucson, but I just want to point out that I am not really lonely. My family and my boyfriend have been amazing the past couple weeks. I mean, Nathan stayed out here in Tucson for 10 days and just sat in my apartment alone and bored while I was in class just because he knew I wanted him to be here with me (he even stayed an extra couple days). And even though he is back in SD now he spends a lot of time talking to me on the phone and making sure I am still sane. I feel bad because I always call him in the worst mood, but he always always always puts up with my attitude and just talks to me and makes me feel better. Sometimes I hate that he can make me laugh no matter what... there are times when I call him I just want to rant to him or cry or just complain and have a pity party but he always has some silly song he makes up and sings to me or some silly joke and I can't stay mad. But thats probably a good thing. He is absolutely amazing. I love him I love him I love him. More than anything.

And my Mama has been very tolerant of me lately:) I call her allllllll the time too ha ha. Sometimes you just need your Mom, right??? Anyway, she always talks to me for however long I need to talk, and I love her for it. I really really really wish I lived by her sometimes. Just so we could have lunch or cuddle or something. I miss her. 

My Dad has been very tolerant too. I call him while he is at work so he is usually very busy but he talks to me anyways:) He loves me a lot!!!!!! 

So THANK YOU to my patient boyfriend and my beauuutiful parents! You guys are the best! 

I love you MAMA

I love you DAD

I love you NATHAN

Can't wait to see you guys!

XOXO

Back to Bored

I cannot handle being alone for this long. I'm losing my mind, for reals. I was cleaning my kitchen and then I just started talking out loud and kind of narrating what I was doing. What the heck!? I just needed to hear a voice I guess? Anyways, today was just like every other day... I went to class, consumed TWO starbucks, went to Highland Market to get milk, came home and did some homework, called Nathan and bugged him for a while, watched FRIENDS, cleaned my kitchen, washed the dishes, and made some dinner. I didn't work out today, but I might decide to go up to the gym a little later. We will see how I am feeling:) I have a KILLER headache that has NOT gone away since Monday so I might just go to bed. But I think it would be good for me to go workout, I'm just lazy though. OH! Another thing I did was organize my food and what not. I bagged everything in servings so I won't overeat and wrote down what I am going to be eating for the rest of the week. I am hoping organizing this way will help me lose weight:) We will see haha. 

Ugh, I just can't wait to be home for summer. I need a break from school, I am exhausted. All I want is to be home, having a bbq with my family and Nathan on a beautiful San Diego summer night, and be swimming and having fun and just being care free for a little bit. I need it. 

Soon though, soon:)

XOXO

Today is a better day!

So today I feel SO much better than I have been feeling. I had class until 1 and then I went to the gym and had a good workout. Soooo I am feeling good. Right now I am watching Ellen, but I should probably be doing homework because I have tons! OH! And good news... I got an A on my first spanish test! YAY! Anyways, I should go now! XOXO.

Has anyone seen my mind??

Because I think I have lost it. LOST it. I am one of those people who can't survive on their own. I can't just be by myself for long periods of time. I need people. I need to talk. I need to interact with someone or something. Even just having a dog or something alive around would be 500 times better than this. I am so lonely and I am bored out of my mind! OMG! Help me. My roommate is staying at her boyfriends all week and no one else is in Tucson. I can't wait to go home because this is absolutely miserable. I can't even talk to anyone on the phone because everyone else is so busy! GAH! I finished a complete season of FRIENDS today and now I am watching Twilight. I am the lamest person on earth. Surprisingly I can't wait for class tomorrow because I will actually be able to be around real live people. Wow. 

I WANT TO GO HOMEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Smelly cat, smelly cat

All I have done for the past 3 days is watch FRIENDS. Which honestly, is not that bad because it's the best show in the world, but still... it would be better with some company. 

Yesterday I laid out by the pool for a bit, and of course even though I put sunscreen on a got burnt. Today I organized my desk and closet and got stuff ready to pack, then I went to the grocery store and got some food for the week.

My family had my Gramma and Poppy over for a bbq today so they called me and had me on speaker while they all talked and that was kind of nice cause it was kind of like I was there. Then I did some homework and now I am watching FRIENDS again. Exciting, i know.....

But tomorrow I have class again and then I will probably go to the gym so that will take up at least 6 hours:) Yay! 

Para mi Papa

Hola! Estoy estudiando espanol para tres semanas durante el verano. A mi NO me gusta la clase de espanol! Pero, mi papa me quiere escribir en espanol. Ahora, estoy mirando Full House y haciendo mi tarea. Es todo para ahora. Adios!

1 day down, 13 to go!!!

I have survived a whole day ALONE in Tucson and good news.... ONLY 13 MORE DAYS TO GO!! Yesterday wasn't so bad, I went to the pool for a little bit, but after that it wasn't so good. I have to admit I called my Mom 3 times yesterday.... don't judge me!  And I went to bed at 6... and woke up at 7. That's 13 hours of sleep... but HEY I would rather be sleeping than sitting around doing nothing. I'm just surprised I actually slept 13 hours straight. I can't normally sleep for more than like 8 hours???? Weird. I have no clue what I am gonna do today. Right now I am drinking coffee and watching music videos on CMT. That's probably what I will do all day. Actually, I do have some homework to do so that will take up maybe 2 hours of the day. If anyone feels like traveling to Tucson and visiting me that would be fantastic. I might have a slight case of cabin fever by the end of the week... and there will be PLENTY of updates to read cause it gives me something to do. Okayyyy, I'd better be getting back to my exciting life. ;)

XOXO

Five Months Later...

So, I just wrote an entire update of the last 5 months and I LOST it so now you guys are going to get a very condensed version of that update because I do not feel like spending another hour writing everything out again.

Anyways... HI! Sorry I haven't written in months! Here is an update on my life!

My semester went pretty well, I ended with a 3.0 which I am happy about. The first half of the semester consisted of class, lacrosse, class, lacrosse, and more class. That's ALL I did. My team traveled to Los Angeles and Santa Barbara and had 5 home games. I missed out on a couple games in the beginning because I had Mono for 5 weeks, but after that I got to play so it was all good:) At the end of the season I was awards Offensive MVP so that is exciting and I am now co-president of the club with my friend/teammate Casey! My boyfriend Nathan came out to visit me during his spring break and that was amazing! We spent a week together in Tucson, then drove back to San Diego (there was a plane mix up... long story) for MY spring break, then Nathan flew back to New York. I spent the week with my family, then drove back to Tucson.

The second half of the semester was pretty much the same, except more stressful. I had a bajillion papers/oral presentations/tests. No fun! Other than that I was summer job searching like crazy. I officially declared Elementary Education as my major and so I need to fill 120 hours working with kids. I will be applying for the College of Education over the summer so I HAVE to fill them this summer. I found a job coaching the EC Outlaws lacrosse club's youth team over summer, so I am super excited for that, but I am still looking for another job, so hopefully I find one!!! Nathan came out to visit me again once his semester was over. He was here for 10 days and just left this morning, but that was probably the best 10 days of my life:))) I already miss him like crazy! BUT, he will be back in 2 weeks to drive back to SD with me for MY summer:) 

For now I am stuck in Tucson. I am taking a summer class: Second Semester Spanish. So, I am in class from 9 am to 1 pm everyday. It is long, but it is only for 3 weeks and I already have 1 week done so it's not that bad. And now that Nathan is gone I will probably just work out and start packing while I am not in class. Most of my friends went back home for summer so I am stuck alone in the desert and there is nothing to do! AHH! But only 2 more weeks and I am back home:) I can't wait!

So that is my update for now. I will add some picture for you guys from when I was in SD and when Nathan was here visiting. Enjoy! XOXO

At dinner in La Jolla while we were both in San Diego

At Bentley's Powder Puff game while I was in SD. They won!!!

Me and Nathan went a little crazy with Photobooth....??

Let me fill you in...

I have not written in a while so I guess I should fill everyone in on what has happened in my life recently. Well, I am back in Arizona. I got here last Sunday. I drove out here with my boyfriend... yes, boyfriend... don't get too excited. Haha.  He stayed for a couple days then flew back to San Diego, and now is leaving for school also ( in New York). Classes for me started on Wednesday, and I am taking 15 credits this semester. So far, all my classes seem like they are going to be very difficult. UGH! Lacrosse started Wednesday as well, and that was great:) I am happy ot be back practicing, except I almost collapsed because I am so out of shape and we ran SO much. And NOW... I have strep throat:( I got it yesterday, and I could just die. It is awful. So now I have to miss practice, and going to class is like the most painful thing ever cause my head feels like it is going to explode. But the doctor gave me antibiotics and vicoden, so hopefully I will be feeling better soon. Oh, and my friend Steve in S.D. has strep too, so FEEL BETTER STEVE! And also, my roommates have been doing an excellent job of taking the place of my Mama. They are great, and Kristin bought me cough drops, a card, a magazine, a sleeping mask, and a movie:) So sweet, I just love her;) Okay, I guess that's it. XOXO