Solo Adventures

So I am finally home for winter break!! I left Tucson this morning at 6:30 and got here about 12:30. That 6 hour drive was the most terrifying drive ever!!! It pored down rain the entire time, and at one point when I was about an hour from home, passing though the mountains, it SNOWED!!! I was seriously driving in a snow storm!! At first it was just kinda white like it had previously snowed, then after a little while it was full blown SNOWING! The roads were icy and everything around me was WHITE!! It was the coolest/scariest thing ever! I wish I could have gotten out of the car and touched it. But because of the snow it took me longer to get home. Oh, well. Now I am home and happy and ready for break!!! XOXO

Mama and Ashley

I am so dreadfully sorry that I have not been keeping you two updated! How rude of me!! Hahaha. So here you go, this is what I have been up to the last week...

My finals officially started on Friday, although I did have one on Wednesday. I think I did good on my Geology final, but not so good on the listening portion of my Music final. Today I have a Mythology final which should kick my ass pretty hard, and tomorrow I have a American History final which I should do good on. I also have to take the second part of my Music final on the internet, but apparently it is not working the way it is suppose to, so I am still not able to take that, and I don't know when I will. But it is going to be one of my hardest finals. I have an hour to answer 100 questions... JEEZ! I have two hours to do a lot less than that in all my other classes, so yeah, I don't know, should be interesting. I have recently become obsessed with the show called HOUSE. I watched the marathon yesterday while I studied. Ummmm... I really have not been doing anything but studying and just sitting around. I am in the process of ordering apparel for my lacrosse team, and that is the most stressful thing ever!!! I also have to go get my oil changed, tires filled up, clean my room, house, kitchen, laundry, everything, before I leave for home. I am leaving early Wednesday morning to go back to San Diego!!! Yay, I am sooo excited!! Then what, like a week till Christmas!?! WOOO! Okay, well I have to finish getting ready to go to my final. Love love love! XOXO

It's been a while!

Sorry I haven't posted for a while, it's been busy busy busy around here!!! So this is my last week of regular classes, then I have Dead Day Thursday and my finals start Friday, then I come home Wednesday!!! YAY! I have been pretty busy catching up with class work and projects and attempting to study for my finals. Plus, I am trying to order a bunch of stuff for my team so thats been stressful. We had a scrimmage on Friday against ASU, we lost but I had a lot of fun. It was the first time we played as a team, so it was like a trial run/ warm up for us. I feel like I played pretty good though!! I scored 2 goals:) One of them I ran the ball from the far restraining line to the goal, it felt SO good to run that fast again. I feel like I have gotten so much slower, so I intend to work my butt off to get back to being super fast again! I am feeling really behind on school stuff lately, and it is making me stress out really bad. Luckily I have some pretty nice professors that are being really understanding and lenient. I am so grateful for that. I have been having the hardest time sleeping though. It takes me about 2 hours to fall asleep, then I wake up every couple of hours and have to shift in my bed. I guess I just have a lot on my mind. Actually, I don't guess, I know. I have A LOT on my mind. I think about Niamh all the time. I couldn't even really tell you what it is I am thinking about her, it is just that she is always on my mind. It is weird because I like talk to her in my head. I figure she might be able to hear me. But then I think stuff that I don't want to tell her, then I am like OH CRAP, pretend you didn't hear that Niamh, and I always say sorry to her haha. I really wish I could talk to her for real. I miss her a lot. I don't know how to explain how I feel, but I guess you could compare it to like a druggy needing their fix... maybe not that crazy, but I have this overwhelming NEED for her. I have been so angry lately because of it. Its like I am not getting what I want, so I am taking out on everyone else, I feel so bad for my roommates, I wouldn't want to be around me. And it's not just that I am angry because I am not getting what I want, to talk to her, I am angry at myself, like there was some way I could have prevented this, even though I know that that doesn't matter, and I shouldn't be thinking that way. It is going to be weird not coming home to her this break. I actually don't even know what I am going to do. I have a lot of great friends, and I am sure I will see them all over break, but normally I would spend like every day with Niamh. So who am I going to hang out with? It makes me so sad. I just want her back. This isn't fair. Why did someone as good as Niamh have to die so young, when there are murderers and criminals out there that deserve to die but will probably live forever? Life just isn't fair, and I know that. But I can't help but think it.