Winter break was amazing and I am so sad that it is over. I had so much fun with my family and it was so so so good to spend time with Nathan. We didn't actually do anything really exciting, but I got to see him every day and it was just so nice. I would literally give anything to be able to spend every day with him now. We went to the beach a few times, and at the end of break Nathan, Bentley, Evan (Nathan's little brother), and me went up to Hollywood to spend a weekend with Nathan's older brother Jesse. That was probably the highlight of break, it was so much fun! We went to Hollywood, Beverly Hills, Rodeo Drive, Venice Beach, and the Santa Monica Pier.
That was my last weekend at home, then Nathan and I drove back to Tucson. He stayed with me for a couple days, then is was another painful goodbye. We celebrated our one year anniversary the day he left, so needless to say it was a very depressing anniversary. The goodbyes keep getting harder. I thought I would get used to seeing him go, but every time we say goodbye it is worse than the time before. I am sure you guys don't want to hear my go on and on about how horrible it is to say bye to someone you love and know you're not going to see them for a long time so I won't go on about it, but just imagine living without the person you love most. It kind of sucks. A lot.
Anyways, I had my first week of class. I am in all education courses so that is great. I like all my classes, but I already have so much reading and homework to do.
Lacrosse also started this week and definitely kicked my butt!
Other than that I am bored and lonely, as of right now. Not much to do here, and unfortunately most of my friends spend their time with their boyfriends (kill me). So, I spend my time with my cat. I have no idea what I am going to do this weekend. It is a 3 day weekend, but I kind of wish it wasn't. I will probably just do homework all weekend, I don't have money to do anything else. Wonderful.
Ugh, life is so frustrating. Everything about it. Life is just so hard right now. I wish that I could fast forward 2 years to when I will be teaching in my own classroom, and I will be living in the same city (or at least state) as Nathan, and I will be closer to my family. Whenever I have a weekend like this I always think about how it would be if I went to school by my family. I would just be able to drive home and hang out with me when I was alone like this. I would have something to do, people to see. Not that I don't have friends here, it is just hard to make plans with people at this point. Like I said, boyfriends.
I wish I had a normal relationship. I wish I was done with long distance. I know I complain about it all the time, but it is just so stupid! I hate it more than anything really. UGH. It is too hard and no one should have to do it. Two more years though...
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