3 months, 13 weeks, 87 days, 125,280 minutes... they better go by fast!

So, I guess I am feeling somewhat better. I am still having a really hard time with this, but I got to talk to Nathan this morning, which made me happy. But I just really miss him a lot. Like I feel anxious all day, and when I finally get to talk to him my heart races so fast. I feel like a little girl when her crush talks to her haha. Everyday I wish there was something I could do to bring him back, to be able to see him everyday, but obviously that's just crazy cause there is nothing I can do.  I have a biology test tomorrow that is gonna kick my butt so that is also causing me a lot of stress too. Ugh, I want it to be winter break already. I am already over this whole semester. I think it will probably be the hardest one for me, so once it is over... I think I will be okay. I hope it will be okay. And I think that if I can get through this semester, being so far away from Nathan, and putting up with everything that comes along with your boyfriend being in a different country... then I will be able to get through the year and a half after that that I have to be away from him. Because this is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. And it may seem silly to some of you, but think about this... if you had to be away from the one person you love most whether its a husband, boyfriend, daughter, son, friend... would it be easy for you? What about if you couldn't talk to them? I 've realized this: I was fine last semester when we were away from eachother, then we came home for summer and did everything together, literally, and now he is in a different country... I got so used to living my life with him in it, with him as a really big part, that now that I have to live my life without him... I don't know how... And I don't know what to do...