Finally

So I finally talked to Nathan today. It wasn't the happiest of talks, but it was nice to hear from him. He starts 2 classes tomorrow and the rest next week. And he is already running out of money (MAYBE HE WILL HAVE TO COME HOME;)!!!!!!!!!!!) We are not going to be able to talk on the phone, or text. So it's the internet only, oh joy. And this sucks. This sucks. This sucks. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I wish that SOMEONE could even understand a little how I feel right now. There needs to be some kind of support group for people in long (and when I say long I mean LONG) distance relationships. This is so stupid. I could not be more unhappy. And I know that is a horrible attitude, but whatever, I could care less at this point. And I just want to give props to my cousin Carissa... I don't know how you did it with a baby and not seeing Brandon for 7 months, you're my hero girl! Anyways, life is boring in Tucson as usual. AAAAAANNNNDDD I wish I could find a way to make these 3 months go faster because at this rate, I might be dead or have gone insane by the time December comes around. Ugh. And MOM I know I know "distance makes the heart grow fonder"... but right now distance is making me want to rip out my heart and throw it right in Nathan's face. Can you guys tell I am angry right now?? I am filled to the brim with rage. And at the same time I want to fall into a puddle on the ground and cry until I throw up. There are a lot of worse things that could be happening, I know. But this IS what is happening. THIS is what I am living through right now. And I think that if you have ever loved someone as much as I love Nathan, you would realize that having that person you love in a different country, on a different time, and unable to speak with them is pretty rough. It's hard to think of them going on and living there life without you in it. It's hard to think that there are other people that get to see him everyday when you have to wait months just to see him for a couple weeks. It's hard to think that you're not a part of their daily life. That you are just something on the side. Anyways, I have to go study for a POL test I have tomorrow. I tell ya, I have such a fun life. LATER! Be ready for my next long rant! XOXO